I’m scared that I’ll end up divorced. I’m scared that I’ll miss out on the greatest life possible for myself, because I got selfish. I’m scared I’ll end up like the husband and father I promised myself I would never be.
I’m scared that I’ll get fired from work. That Kimi will have to support us, and I won’t be able to find a job.
I’m scared I’ll be empty. Unfulfilled.
I’m scared I’ll be useless.
I fear a lot of things, and I hate it. It took me the better part of this year to not wake up terrified to go to work, even though I wrote a blog post about it. I’m scared I’ll drink too much. I’m scared I’ll get fat. I’m scared I’ll go broke.
I think college grads fear a lot of things. The job market – seems impossible to get a job you don’t hate, or even a job at all. Online dating? You’re scared of what people will think when they find out you couldn’t get a date any other way. You’re scared that everything will fall apart – living paycheck to paycheck, with no safety net.
We don’t have to be scared.
We can be responsible. We can go to counseling for our issues. We can make a budget and be in charge of our money, instead of letting our money stay in charge of us. We can choose to not settle for a subpar dating life, career path, bank account. We can choose not to settle for a subpar life.
It takes work, and it takes the guts to face those fears. Maybe you’re just scared of the dark like I was growing up, or maybe you’re scared of ending up like a cliché inadequate husband.
Whatever you’re going through, take a page from the book of one of the most terrified people you know – me. But know that’s one side of the coin, which is the good news. I’d like to think I’m one of the braver people I know, because I’ve faced what’s in the dark corners of myself I don’t like looking into.